by Joe Murphy

For Emily 
In Remembrance

It seems your years were set too closely together:
When one toppled, all the others fell.

Shut the power off, you said. Enough. Your body
Quickly shut down.

Your smile is now as ours will be:
A few to recall, then none.

No trumpets, no drum roll: a short ceremony;
Then on to spring, to summer.

Thousands had died the day before: an earthquake;
Mud-brick houses. 

But it was you who brought death into focus.

Outside and alone, fists clenched, sunlight 
Seemed to jab at my bent neck.

I began to breathe deeply: arms back; chest raised.

I was sure I could push
My heart beats aloft, hoping your spirit
Might gain by it. 

I don’t know why I did this, but it mattered.

I’m still trying to reason it through:
But the parts keep changing shape,
Falling from my hands.

Your Footprints


Was it 42’ or 43’?

You, on liberty in Miami:
Off watch, wandering from beach to bar;
Cast from destroyer-grey
Into a bright-colored world, Massachusetts
A snow-bound memory.

But what of this shore leave? The last?
What might flash brightest at life’s end?

What better for a young man: The memory of a woman.

Ah, that fateful dance at the USO: Kitty as war bride
Three weeks from first sight.

Your screen-test-perfect features, hale build, warm grin,
Arm slung over a shipmate’s shoulder: That photo
Said it all; Adonis in Cracker Jacks.

Miss Miami never had a chance.

But love didn’t survive that collision of desire and war.

You: Boston-Irish; smooth talking; but hard-nosed, hard-drinking;
Hard-bitten by the Depression, hungry to succeed.

Her temperance and Baptist virtue
Didn’t fit. Your fears didn’t help. The soft-spoken beauty queen
Seemed too easy a target.

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Your motto: keep her barefoot and pregnant.

And the custom was marriage, no matter the cost;
Neither ever rising past anger to peace.  

Subterfuge. Neglect. Late in life, two fighters
Would be led from the ring: dazed, bloodied,
But separated at last.


You would return to Miami,
Manage a swing band:

Forty-plus years since liberty call had last sounded. 

We’d meet. Our fighting days done:
Not a word about Vietnam.

You played me a tune
The band had played.


On your death bed, just audible,
You said you were proud of me.

I told you I loved you, set down the phone and cried.

But what to add? Subtract?

As a long-haired, Sixties teen, I didn’t suggest,
I proclaimed; unequivocal.

Vietnam, my starting point; but my litany
Became that list of your wrong turns
I’d surely avoid — no question, Alan, I’d win.

Now, I’m the age you were then: hair graying;
No less burdened; no better off.
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As a young man, I thought I could navigate
By the stars of my choice.

Now, I take a shorter view. My aim:
The horizon, one step at a time.

It’s no surprise
To find your footprints
At my feet.


The two were depicted on posters hung by the door.

Lenin, 8-feet tall, wore a dark cap, suit and tie;
Red ribbon on lapel.

Pravda peeked from a vest pocket: the truth.

Facing the kitchen, chin held high, he looked past it:
Confident those below had heard his call
To press onward, ever onward.

The man-sized Santa doffed his cap:
Magnanimous, smiling, list in hand; another entry made.

And so they hung, paper-thin, until
Late one night…

Dream transformed them into an apparition:
Hammer, sickle, harness and sleigh
Swirled above me.

Clattering, clanking, bellowing, they battled on
Until, in a final whirl of color and light,
The images dissolved.

I woke clenched to pillow: the hued, crisp air
Of the still hushed city
Calmed me.

Up, blinds raised, I cracked an egg
To sizzle in a black iron pan. Coffee made,
Toast buttered: It was time.

Two specters came down: manhandled
From wall to trash.

About the Author:

joe murphy

Joseph Murphy has been published in a wide range of journals. His first poetry collection, Crafting Wings, was published by Scars Publications, 2017. A second collection, Having Lived, is forthcoming from Kelsay Books (2018). He is also senior poetry editor for a literary publication, Halfway Down the Stairs, established 2006.